When should we change?

At some point in time, almost everyone would have lacked the courage to express love. Or to take the leap of faith to love, for that matter.

I didn't allow myself to pursue it.

This experience of lacking the courage to love (or to fight for it), is a very good lesson for me.

Because of what held me back, religious differences prove to be a really huge hurdle for people to cross. Especially when the other party is fiercely devoted to his/ her religious beliefs, and of which defers from our own/ or the lack of compatibility in beliefs.

Through this, i found out that we should only change when we are ready and when the need/ want is innate. I never knew i had this conviction until now, what more the intensity of it. Never for anyone, or to salvage any situation, but because we want to, from the bottom of our hearts.

Please remember that.

And of course, it is just one out of the many lessons this episode taught me.

As much as i have had my fair share of sleepless nights and rollercoaster days, i'm not complaining about having to go through all these. What better ways to live life, than to go through all the ups and downs and feel each emotion at their very core. I don't like the sadness and heartbreaks, but i love that i had the chance to soak in the emotions thoroughly.

Live and feel more.

(: